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Sunday, April 22, 2018

Crossroads

Have you ever been at a place in your career or your life where you are not quite sure which direction to go, which way to move? These days, that's where I am professionally. I have experienced so many different successes and I am proud of the things that I have accomplished, but I continually ask myself, "Is there more?" "Should I be doing more?" This Blog Is Why I feel as though I need to take a moment and truly reflect so feel free to share your thoughts/stories with me.

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Not very long ago, I found myself in the role of administrator. Not just administrator, but principal. In my first few days, I was scared. After getting over that, I was determined, dedicated, and passionate. I had worked hard to get there, the work was hard, but I loved it. I loved every minute of it. Except the end. Only two years in, and I found myself back on the market seeking another position. It wasn't what I wanted to do, but it was what I had to do. Since that time, I have struggled. Struggled with confidence in myself. I went back into the classroom and I enjoyed being back in the swing of things. I feel as though it made me a better teacher. But that's just my opinion. The problem, though, once you see the whole picture or big picture (as you do as an administrator), it is super hard to take those lenses off.

In my journey to find myself, and ultimately that "right fit", I found something else. I found myself traveling down a different path. I saw a posting for Instructional Technology Coach and after reading over the job description, I decided to apply. I thought, "Hey, this sounds like me. Why not?" And over the summer I attended a camp learning all about cybersecurity, technology integration, and technology standards. By the time I started my new position, I was ready! And I found myself in a position that allows me to do all the things that I love. I get to share my passion for technology, learn about new resources, plan professional development sessions, and be in many different classrooms. And as an added bonus, I am still a part of the admin team. It's like living a dream. How did I just stumble into my passion like that?

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So what's the problem? I still find myself searching the job postings, looking at administrator positions and wondering if I should apply. There is still that feeling that my impact could be or should be greater. At the same time, traveling back down that road would require me to give up so many of the things that I have come to love in my role as Coach. I like being able to go into classrooms without being seen as "evaluator". I enjoy creating and teaching lessons or hosting "Hour of Code" with a Coding Lab. My dream is to start a LEGO Lab or even a STEM/STEAM lab. Would I still be able to find the time that it takes to commit to these goals? Do I want to risk giving up my DREAM job? Why is this position of administrator still pulling so hard at my heart strings when I truly love what I do?

Well, for now, I am sure my principal will be happy to know that I am just looking, wondering, and encouraging others. I haven't applied for any. I'll just keep that option in my back pocket.



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